Sometimes

Sometimes i let myself believe it.
Sometimes i let my mind wander, is it dangerous for me to have dreams?
These dreams... they lead to happiness, or heartbreak?
And when it is all over, will it have been worth it?
When it is all over, will i wish it would happen all again?
Sometimes i wonder, when is 'all over'?

Is it all over on the balcony, when the sand is between my toes, when i place down the first pot plant or when i step foot into my wildest dreams ... or lose sight of them all together.

Will i feel as complete as my dreams lead me to believe?
Sometimes i wonder if this happiness will fade?

Sometimes i wonder,

Is it going to hurt, that last moment?
Is it going to be electric, that first moment?

Sometimes i just want to dream, because at the moment, these dreams are reality, i am slipping between the two, not knowing what is living, what is a dream, an illusion or reality.

Sometimes...

Too Fast

My gosh, my life is going so fast and i am so afraid. I am sitting here, it is a 40 degree day, i sit in my business atire, business week is over, year 10 is over, christmas is in a few days, holidays have started, only 10 more school weeks until japan and then i am away for three whole months. This is going so damn fast and i am so scared!

Life is beautiful but why is it passing me by! I just have so many moments to absorb and i feel like i can't, i don't want things to go this fast, i love life too much at the moment. I get a lump in my throat when i think of this, this post means so much to me, i just want to cry.

Emelie, your email made me realise all of this and i thank you for the things you said, i love you.

I love so many things and such important things, i am so confused but so happy! Just slow down please.

play hard, ruthlessly with grace...